I have learned to be content….Phil 4:11
I was putting Isaac to sleep the other night and feeling sad
about autism.
He doesn’t say new things. He says the same thing.
Lay down…sleepy.
He is now 8 ½ almost 9 and I am human. I get sad. I wish he
could have a conversation with me.
But I don’t want to stay there.
So I reflect on what
God has done.
Self talk: I remind myself what God has done.
Remember when you prayed and prayed for Isaac to talk?
God answered that prayer
Remember when you prayed and prayed Isaac would be potty
trained?
God answered that prayer.
Remember when you prayed and asked God to help Isaac not
bite other kids at school?
God is answering this prayer
Remember you asked God for break throughs?
Like for Isaac to
sleep through the night because he would wake up 2-3 times a night and start
playing very loud and you had broken sleep for 6 straight years?
He sleeps through the night now doesn’t he? Yes.
I have learned to be content.
I find myself fighting with myself.
On one hand I am thrilled at all the break throughs and
miraculous answers to prayer God has moved mightily in Isaac’s life. I am so
full of joy.
On the other hand…Isaac still has autism and some days
and/or moments are hard.
I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances.
I stopped and meditated on this verse. I tried to put myself
in Paul’s shoes.
He was shipwrecked, persecuted, imprisoned, stoned, hungry,
cold…etc.
I have learned to be content. Phil 4:11
Then I meditated on the word “learn” My husband is a teacher
and we always talk about the learning process.
That’s it!!!
It’s a process…I have learned to be content. It’s not like a
light bulb. It’s a daily sacrificial learning.
Some days are great and I am
learning to be content. Somedays are hard and I have to re-learn to be content.
I will get there…I will with God’s grace say like Paul “I have learned to be
content whatever the circumstances”
It’s a learning process. We “LEARN” how to be content by
reminding ourselves of God’s character (through His names) and by meditating on
His promises.
I have learned to be content.
I like the ESV
"Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever
situation I am to be content."
May we put the enemy in his place.
May we tell our emotions-
NO. I am not going there..I am not going to feel sorry about this circumstance
I
am going to learn to be content and in that state I find JOY in His presence!
Olivia blessed my heart. She said her friends were arguing
and she did not change her mood. She continued to try to crack jokes and stay
calm. “Why are you so nice?” they asked her. “I am just trying to be like my
mom. Even when situations are hard…she stays happy” she said.
I have learned to be content whatever the circumstance. If
my daughter is learning this and putting it into practice all I can say is
Glory to God. Wow, what a Great God we serve!
