Un-tired

LORD Jesus,

My soul is tired.

So 

so tired.

Is there any way you can make it "untired" like when a runner unties his shoes?

Like when he tightens them when they feel loose? But later unties them?

I am tired.

But it's deep

It's so very deep and profound and poignant and pungent too.

I'm so tired I'm afraid there is no relief for it today.

LORD Jesus,

I'm tired.

really quite literally tried and tired.

Can you untire me?

Can you retread the thread?

Can you put the toothpaste back in and rewind what has been said?

Those words matter. What was said was cruel vile and venomous.

Can this life be all vexed and bloated and awkward and calloused?

LORD Jesus,

My soul is tired.

So 

so tired.

My mind is wound up like an old grandfather clock.

It is not at all like the one at Disneyland gladly grinning cheerfully ringing

tick tock tick tock 

 LORD Jesus,

My soul is tired.

So 

so tired.

Sin is everywhere like a virus or ravenous weed

it spreads it infects it harms and it stings

I am a sinner, we all are sinners but the sorrow He endured prevailed

He died so we can crawl on our knees and praise and joyfully enter the chamber behind the veil

Adonai Jesus

My soul is tired.

There, I said it again.

Maybe I'll just get up and heat up some warm milk and toast some bread

I won't do it

I won't spiral

I won't be unraveled again

My soul may be tired but my life is not expired and I'm too young to feel this old

The lies I hear are too numerous and they weigh down my blood bought soul

Can you make me untired can you help me get some rest?

Can I just snuggle with you Jesus, lay here with my sweaty head on your chest?

Can I sniff your shirt and smell the gardenias and smell the woodshop and yes even some dried up blood?

Can I think of the ocean and how you healed a blind man from spit and some mud?

Can you make my soul untired and can we just try this all over again?

I need your love, your correction, your reflection to be made out of my life.

I need to release to you all my prayers my wrestling and day to day strife

Can you make me untired, can you grant me true rest?

For your yoke is easy and for now I can truly say good-night.... I'm gonna leave this right here on my Savior's chest.

You are the only One who knows how to awake my weary soul you are the only One who makes my negative integer a whole.

Father Son and Spirit - He is more than words on a page

Thank you LORD for allowing me to write these words and let loose my feelings that were once encaged

In the moon in the sun in the air I breathe

I remember even the world is tired and begs for relief

The sorrows of my heart have enlarged but I will trust you are the Only Way

You give me joy for the morrow and new mercies and hope presented by you each day 

Untire my soul 

Untie my shoes too

I'll sleep with lovely thoughts of my Savior's love that is absolute